Just Do it

A rush of thoughts comes to my mind, a storm of emotions, as I sit staring at the keyboard and a blank word processing document. Amazement arises at the marvel that is the, human brain that can simultaneously be present at so many different nodes, touching such a wide array of topics and buzzing through millions of thoughts every second. Wish I could throw it all out and fill this page up with the flood that’s rushing through.

It has been thought, it has been planned, but when do changes really happen? How do they come across? It all begins with a simple thought (Inception did have some sense to it after all!). A tiny thought, taken from a movie, a book, a small incident or a major catastrophe can mold you into a different person altogether. However, we do fight that mold, we might stay in it or get transformed or we rebel.

1:47 minutes into the flight, the pushed back adrenaline rushes back out. Its screaming out to do something, and I have no clue what. I could easily go to sleep. Let all the thoughts rest, but then, I would lose them all.  And who said that planes were made to sleep?

I guess it’s something about 35000 ft. The brain waves start functioning differently, new nodes are opened, or the ones that were junked are restored to proper functioning. It offers more clarity, or does it?

After going through my usual rambling introduction (yes, this was just the introduction), lets delve into a little serious business. I never make this too personal, but enough that it does seem human, and in that spirit, everybody has been at crossroads, where there is a choice, and as they say there is always a choice, but then there are certain times that arise, when we can see the path, the only path that we need to talk that will hopefully get us where we want to get to, but we are still not taking it (yes, that was a long sentence. My English teacher would be mortified if she ever got to read all this).

So why do I hesitate, why am I not doing the so called “right” thing. Is it laziness? Do I need a push, or maybe a punch in the gut to realize what I am missing out on? Am I scared? And as I write all this down, I have an epiphany ( And YOU thought I write this for you guys to read? :P ) . Its NONE of them.

It is the lack of the realization that I just had. That I am not picking up the hammer (Yes, THOR). I lack the complete understanding of what I am to become and gain if I do go down that path. And once that comes rushing in (I love the word Rush), you want to get down on that like a rat on cheese.

This new year, don’t make a resolution (cause we all know how well that work out). Go down the path that is meant for you. It might be that its not right in front of you. But once you find it, don’t be a fool like me and waste your time just staring down it. Imagine if staring down it is so much fun, how amazing it would be to actually take it.

With this I take my leave to take a walk down the aisle and probably jump off the plane! I hate flying and a very Happy new year. 

- The Rambler

Its Never too late…

Movies have the power to transport one into another story, a different realm and if one can really let go of reality, it elevates them to whole new world of ideas, emotions and inspirations.

This is going to be a combination of two blogs that I planned to write, and I am going throw out another idea before merging the one above with it. Ask yourself this question, what are the three most important things in your life? Money? Power? Love? The new Assassin’s creed game (Trust me, it disappoints)?

The three most important things in life is the REM. Relationships Experiences Memories. REM sleep is the most important criteria for normal functioning of the human body and same way this REM is the single crucial piece that is required for the normal functioning of human life itself.

So trying to go back to where I started ( I do get lost a lot!) a simple movie made me realize that we so easily give up on our goals and wishes in life because of things like responsibilities and burdens and yes, the going gets tough at times. But it is NEVER too late. True happiness can only come from pursuing your dream and achieving it and (Yes I am being DEEP and philosophical, isn’t that what people do on this blog crap?). 

Think back, introspect, figure out that one dream you always had, and go do it. It will add up to the Experience part of REM and who knows maybe it becomes special enough to be a memory.

We value things like money way more than our relationships with people, heck, we even build relationships with the end goal being money. But in fact if we kept the GOAL in our life to be the REM (For those who already forgot, Relationships, Memories and Experiences) and everything that we do in life aimed at that goal, it would be like a dream. There are times when you “WISH” that you had something, you were someone else, (I am still too young for a midlife crisis, but why not just avoid it completely?), you meant something more to people…

That is the time my dear friend to make a change. That is the time to set out a goal and that is the time to start living, for the first time! (The script! Look it up).

You might have heard all this along the way, but we tend to forget and forgive. Don’t! Do not forgive yourself for letting go of your dreams. Don’t forget what is most important to you.

Go out! Meet new people, form new relationships, fall in love. Do crazy things, establish new experiences, some maybe good, some maybe bad (Heartbreaks and Hangovers? :P ), and who knows you might end up with beautiful memories.

I had given up on my dreams; I had even forgotten what they were! And a simple 90 minutes of a movie made me realize that what an idiot I have been ( I have been told that many times, but, well I am just an arrogant, egoistic and stubborn kid!). Even though its 1 AM in the morning, I feel that I have just woken up from a very long sleep.

And with all the goodness of my heart (I am just so humble), I share this with you and hope you can wake up as well. Get out of the matrix, be free, and if you can, WELCOME to your new life!

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     -   The Rambler

Midnight Fury

Been meaning to this for a long time, but well time is one thing I don’t have! (No I am not dying!). Out of the many things I have written, this felt like the urgent need of the hour.

I have been writing a lot of papers, and in tune of that ( and the frustration of being up all night), first my abstract! No matter what I do, its never enough?

Everybody has a past, everybody has a future, then why does your past have to shadow the future? Why cant the mistakes you did in the past be left there and you not judged by them, haunted by them every step that you take. Why is it that when you learn to let go of your past, others hold on to it! It’s my past for heaven's sake! Not even yours!

This is a very angry outburst, trying to be controlled, so you might want to stop reading! They say give your 100% to something, put in your heart, and things will work out! Well for all those who still believe that, it’s CRAP. I don’t mean to sound negative, I am just a realist!

I tell you what I feel, I open my heart out and bleed out for you, but you don’t get it. You don’t believe in it, I repeat myself, I try to prove it, but you are just too blocked by the past, mine and yours. And its not fair in either case. If its your past, then how is it fair for it to infect my future (or rather our future) with doubt and fear, and if its mine, once again, JUST LET IT GO! Life is too short (As I keep saying!) and every day wasted living in those tiniest of things is a crime! (YES! I am putting forth a motion to make it legalized).

I wish you could just see me for what I am right now. I wish you could see the man that I have the potential to turn into, the person I wish to turn into. One argument you might throw at me is “It’s not what you are underneath. It’s what you do that defines you.” (Yes! I just quoted Batman!)! Even in that case, why do you not see what I am doing now? Shouldn’t that be taken into account?

I can’t erase what I have done, but I can definitely paint a better future! Just give me a chance!

Looking for the silver lining…

-The Rambler

Knock Knock!

Blogging! Yeah ironic, right? So this is supposed to be an introductory post! A lot more to come(hopefully) so you whoever out there in the wild world is reading this can have an amazing time either critiquing it or quoting it (I do say a few deep things sometimes!! ).

The internal war presently is to reveal myself or not? I don’t know! I probably will publicizing this but keep on an invisible mask(See what I just did there? )

A few disclaimers, I love parentheses. Sometimes I feel that my brain has too many things going on at the same time (I feel like jumping in a pile of leaves, right now! I love the fall) and so does my writing goes into various avenues at the same time. Number two : I am absolutely horrendous at English. If you are looking for something refined to read, please check out the BYU library ( I hear they have like 6 floors or something, I wouldn’t know. Never stepped in a place with books!), and lastly, I might end up saying stuff that might offend people. The reason that would happen is when I write,  all filters of my head are lifted and this is RAW and real ( <3 – 2 - <3) ( And if you didn’t get what that meant, you obviously don’t text a lot).

So a little more about myself, I go to BYU, and before you give me that look (in case you are not from BYU) I KNOW it’s a religious college. According to official records I am aiming for my Master’s degree, according to real accounts by people who know me, at the pace I am going it will take me about 10 years. I love the city of Provo, but I am not from this country at all, (so if these articles go up in the court of law, I might be deported), I natively belong to India and was brought up in Dubai, UAE. No, I am not a terrorist and I do not have any homosexual attributes like Rajesh Kutrapali (BIG BANG theory reference guys!). Yes I am brown, but I could be the caramel fudge to your vanilla twist.

I love meeting new people, trying everything edible (I once tried eating a shoe, not fun!), and going places. I do things that might seem crazy (nuts, stupid, idiotic, preposterous and gross too!) to people (Driving to the end of the world at 4 AM!) but life is too short to be serious.

Finally, the reason I started this tale of pure sheer awesomeness (Nope! Just kidding, Its legend ---- Wait for it --- Dary) is that my life has been having super great experiences since I am surrounded by so many awesome people in my life. Friends, Family, lovers (Ahem!), haters, Teachers, Colleagues, unknown strangers who smile at me on the street (Some of them are creepy!) and most importantly the Heavenly Father (More on this later). So the idea was simple, smash your keyboard for a few minutes, and voila! Share it for the world to see.

Oh yeah! Constructive criticism is welcome (For destructive ones, please write them down on a sheet of 

paper, seal it in an envelope and send it to J.K. Rowling). And if you do like my introduction so far (*PUPPY FACE PLEASE*) share the blog with your friends, family, dogs, cats and do follow it for all juicy content!  

Adios

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      The Rambler